I will follow up with Dr. Chappell on a weekly basis from here. The hope (and fear) is that I will have the two other drains removed next week when we see him. During my weekly visits with him, he will continue to inject my expanders with saline until they get to the desired size. Following Chemotherapy, I will undergo an additional surgery in which he replaces the expanders with implants which will also be held in place by the Pec muscles. As healthcare professionals, this stuff intrigues us but we realize it might not be as interesting to others.
I believe that the fact that we are healthcare providers has served a valuable purpose in all of this, but I also need to be honest in saying that I continue to struggle with the reality that this is my body. Looking at myself in a mirror continues to be a process as I am flooded with emotions/fears of how I will look at the end of all of this. My hair will grow back but will my body be still attractive? Then God meets me at that emotion/fear with a sweet reminder in Proverbs 31:30 "beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." and in 1 Peter 3:4 that the "unfading beauty of a quiet and gentle spirit is of great worth in the Lord's sight". Then He also gives me great comfort in the unwavering love of my sweet husband who continues to take such great care of me.